Me

I had a realization a few weeks ago, Rowan was turning 19 months and it was like all of a sudden I thought, "I finally feel like I can keep up". Going from three to four kids was amazing, yet also extremely difficult for me to really feel like I was doing an adequate job at meeting the needs of my kids and my house, etc. I always felt like I was behind on all that needed done and that doesn't feel good.

So with this realization, I feel like, although I still have all the same demands and responsibilities, I feel like I can do it.
The best feeling is that it's time to do some things just for me, for fun, and it feel so good remembering and exploring what I enjoy. These times are few and far between but they are there, usually at night after the kids are in bed.

My first fun project was trying my hand at antiquing a couple of the end tables in our living room, and a corner hutch that used to be my Great Grandma's. I am not a perfectionist and it shows, but that's part of the beauty of antiquing:)

I have enjoyed keeping up with The Bachelor, American Idol, and The Biggest Loser. I have never been a big tv watcher, but it has been fun for a season!

I am not sure about the right timing, but I want to go back and finish school. I have a psychology degree that I am close to finishing. I am still very interested in psychology, but have a new love for nutrition and whole health; mind, body, spirit. I want to pursue a degree in health and nutrition, a holistic approach.

Something I am learning this year, with so many demands on me, is to take time for me, that it's not selfish, but it's really essential. It's hard to stop and take a moment when the dishes aren't done or the house is a wreck, but I am learning that it can wait, my sanity is more important:).

I am still learning as right now my house needs some desperate attention after a week and a half of sick kids and school hasn't happened much either...I'm taking a deep breath:)
Focusing on all that is going well versus what isn't is super important for me too...I have an incredible home, husband, kids, privelege of teaching my kids at home, wonderful family, food on the table, amazing church, sweet relationship with Jesus, washing machine, dishwasher:) I could go on, but this is good, it's making me smile, now back to the laundry mountain:)
Here's a few pictures of reality today:) Hopefully I'll get to it all today:) Smiling:)